Three and a half years.
That’s all the time I have left. All the time I have left here, in Michigan. All the time I have left here, living with my parents and having them right there, whenever I need them. All the time I have left with my friends, my best friends. Three and a half years, it just doesn’t seem like enough time. In fact, I know that it isn’t enough time.
Michigan. I must admit that I will be happy to leave this state; it’s extremely uneventful, and not very exciting. I can’t wait to go to college, so that I can go off to a big city, somewhere exciting and popping with life. But I will not lie to you, I’m going to miss it here; even if it is the one thing I will miss the least. I’ll miss how hot it can get in the summer, but how brutally cold it can get in the winter. I’ll miss that no matter where you are, you’re never too far from a body of water. I’ll miss the forest of trees that line both side of the highway. I’ll miss The Grand River cutting through Downtown and Mad Cap Coffee’s, hot chocolate. I’ll miss so much more that I cannot even think of right now. It makes me feel like I’ll never want to leave; but I really do, and I will have to leave. This just isn’t the place for me. And I want you to know, that in three and a half years, I will miss it here. I will miss you Michigan.
My parents and family. It might be nice to get away from the constant checking up on, and nagging to get my homework done. It will be nice to become my own person and stand tall and strong, knowing I wouldn’t be me without them, and then thinking about how I am going to be making them all proud! I have a feeling I will be completely lost without them. No matter what I do in life my parents are always right there. They are the ones holding my hand when I’m scared, pestering me to make good decisions, and tucking me in at night. Though I don’t think I need the pestering to make good decisions (although it’s been good up to this point), I know I will miss the holding hands and the tucking in. They are the ones that have made me who I am, it’s going to be weird being me without them right there. I know when I’m away there will be so many times where I’ll sit there and think, ‘Man, if my parents were here right now, they be saying ______’ then I’m going to let out a sigh ‘Man, I miss them so much!’ I’m going to be calling them almost every night, and sending letters and postcards about my daily expeditions. I will miss them so much! I will be lost without them but I will carry on. I will visit them whenever I get the chance. In three and a half years I will probably miss them the most! At least I will get to see them on holidays, and they will always be my family. No matter how far away I am they will never be able to get rid of me! I will miss you, Mommy and Daddy! I will miss you, family!
My friends, my best friends. I don’t really think that I can think of any bright side to be leaving them. Maybe a bright side could be that I’ll meet new people and make new friends, but it’s still not much of a bright side.(I’m not very good at meeting new people, though I really am getting better at it. I think I’m getting better people skills.). I will miss the insanely random conversations. I will miss the way they always try to reassure me when I’m upset and questioning everything. I will miss the way they always know if something’s wrong. I will miss random nicknames and inside jokes. I will miss their smiles and their laughs. I will miss how they will do almost anything for me, as long as they know it will make me happy. I will miss them so much! I hope that we will be able to maintain our friendships through college. More than likely we will all being going to different schools, we all want to do things that are so different, there’s no way that we will all be able to go to the same school. Sometimes I fantasize me and my best friend becoming roommates through college; going to classes, coffee shops, parties, and adventures together. I wish my best friend could go to college with me, and I would be guaranteed the best roommate ever! I don’t see how that’s possible though, and even if it was who’s to say she would want to go to college with me? I will miss them so much, and hope that we can stay in contact. I hope that they will come visit me and I hope I will be able to come visit them. I three and a half years from now, I will be departing from them in tears, wishing them good luck on their journey and demanding them to stay in contact. I hope we really do! I love you guys. Miranda and Katelyn, you are both like sisters to me, I love you guys! I hope all your greatest dreams come true! My friends, my best friends, Miranda and Katelyn, I will miss you!
Well, there it is. College is but a looming adventure coming up too quickly in my life. I’m looking forward to it, but, in all truth, it scares me a little. I don’t like thinking about it, but yet I love thinking about it. It excites me, but yet it makes me so fearful. I can’t wait, but then again I just wish time could stop before it came. It’s an entire list of contradicting feelings. I need to start figuring it all out, there’s something stopping me every time I try. I’m only a freshman, I have plenty of time. Then again, I barely have any time at all. I need to start figuring this out. Soon, young grasshopper, soon. I’m just not quite ready for it yet. I’ll figure it all out in time; it will all get better in time. Or will it get more difficult? I guess I’ll figure it out as I go along. Just go with it, Baylee, just go with it.
I’m sure there will be many more issues, such as this one, to be discussed. So, this is where you start to follow the journey of a young teenage girl trying to figure out her life before her. Are you ready to witness the journey? I well, I’m ready to start it. Here we go. Ready, set, Fly.
xoxox
~Baylee Jean
P.S. This journey is going to have some twist and turns. Times where the road is flat, and times when I will be climbing a mountain. I need to record this as I go through it. I don’t ever want to forget these years, or the people and places in them. I will not fail myself. So that’s why I’m going to write this, going to write this blog. So I never forget. I never, ever want to forget. Now, I never will.
P.S.S. I just watched the Very last Hannah Montana episode ever. It made me cry. It is also what brought up this topic. My and Miranda just had a conversation about it, and so I had to get my full feelings out. That episode seemed almost, in some ways, my future. Except not AS dramatic, and maybe not with such a good ending. Oh yeah, and I don’t know why, but I’m a little sad Hannah Montana is gone. It’s just a part of my childhood I guess, and now it’s over forever. As of January 16, 2011 Hannah Montana is over forever…. Good Bye Hannah Montana!
Love ya!
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