Still Sick

Still sick…
I posted my first letter of the year today. It’s extremely long, but I needed to write it. I have to do 2 of these letters a week. They are going to be written to practically anyone. The person I choose for today was just someone I thought would be good to start with. I had a lot to say to this person so yeah. If you don’t want to read it, then don’t, it’s more something I posted for myself. Not really something all that important to you. Hey maybe it will inspire you or something, who knows.
So I stayed home from school again today. And I’m staying home tomorrow as well. I really hate being sick. My friends will bring me all my missed homework after school tomorrow, they really are great friends! My mom is also going to go to Barnes & Noble to buy a book for me (my money, I’m just sick so I asked her to do it). I’ve heard a lot of good things about I am Number Four, so that is the book I have decided to buy. When I finish it I think I’ll do a review of it. Sound good? Has anyone read it yet? Well, I think it sounds interesting so, yeah.
I think I’m going to go now. I know that this is short, but I wrote such a long letter. I think this is probably long enough. I’m going to work on adding some cool things to my blog. So good night folks!
xoxox
~Baylee Jean

Letter 1

Dear Cheerio,
This is probably the third letter I’ve ever written to you that I do not intend to send. (yes, that rhymed.) Why am I writing this? Well, I’m sure you can guess. I’ve liked you for a while, Cheerio. I know I missed my chance to tell you this, but I feel the need to let you know anyway. So here it goes.
This letter is from the sixth grader who had just started a new school. She didn’t know anyone, and she didn’t really fit in. She was really just awkward and unpopular. I don’t know how she did it, but she managed to make a few friends and have fun. It was a year of mixed emotions and weird changes. This girl found out about book club, and instantly she joined. Reading was something that she had always enjoyed and it was nice knowing that other people did too. That’s where she met this extremely nice, funny, sporty guy. At first she just thought that he was like everyone else and he would probably be one of the people who dropped out after the first week. She was wrong. Turns out he was one of the few people who came to the very last book club. You were really smart, which she appreciated. After the 2nd meeting she fell for you instantly. You were the first guy she ever really liked. And through book club she got to know you, and became acquaintances with you. You were one of the only guys that were nice enough to stop in the halls and say ‘hey’. She thought you were extremely charming. She never told you she liked you because she was too young, too clueless, and just had no clue what she was doing. There was no point for a sixth grade girl to tell someone how much she liked him, she was too young to date anyways.
This letter is also from the seventh grade girl who returned to school that year after having dreamed of you all summer. Sounds a little creepy I know, but it’s true. You were the only person on her mind. When she got back to school that year, it seemed like you didn’t remember her. So, she had to make herself rememberable. After one of her best friends asked you out and you said no, she decided that she had to step it up. Well maybe she did that a little too well. She was loud, obnoxious, and somehow had some reason to rebel. It was crazy. She laughed just a little too loud, and wanted to know just a little too much. Some of that was good though. That was the year she called you, February 26th to be exact. And though it creeped you out a bit, it made her fell like she could do anything. You had drama class together, and she got to talk to you every day. Man was she lucky! You made her smile on a regular basis. By the end of that year, she considered herself your friend. She didn’t tell you she liked you because she didn’t know how. She was trying to figure out what she wanted and who she was. She was experimenting with life. It probably would have been the best year for her to tell you. But it would have made things more difficult for her. It was probably a good decision. Rejection would have destroyed her.
This letter is from an eighth grade girl who tried to move on. She never could. It finally occurred to her that you weren’t trying and that you didn’t feel that way about her. So she tried to move on, she really did. She rarely talked to you anymore, and she started talking to different guys. For a while it worked. But every time she started liking a different person, she always somehow ended up liking you again. You were so irresistible. She was persistent, so she kept trying to get over you. For a long while she started to like another guy, one of your best friends actually. It worked for a while too, she started talking to him a lot, and she really liked him. Until he got a girlfriend. Then she realized that she never really liked him anyway. She had another class with you again, and even though she tried to keep herself from talking to you, she couldn’t. It was like a magnet. She still liked you, and she started to realize that she always would. She wasn’t going to try to make herself stay away much longer. One of her best friends liked you as well. That bothered her so much. Watching her flirt with you, and the way she talked about you. It almost drove her mad. She tried not to let it bother her too much though. At the end of graduation she finally got to give you a hug. When she did she burst into tears, she knew she would never see you again. She thought it was kind of funny that she didn’t cry when she said goodbye to some of her best friends left that she knew she would never see again, but when you left, she could not stop herself from crying. She never told you she liked you because she was trying to deny it. She was too afraid of rejection and felt like she had lost her chance. She barely even talked to you, and she knew you didn’t feel the same way, so she didn’t even bother. She was just trying to get out of middle school alive and happy. But was she really? Maybe she would have felt a little more relieved if she had only told you.
This letter is also from the ninth grade girl that feels ridiculous for not having let you go yet. The last time she saw you was June 11th 2010, it is currently January 6th 2011 and counting. You talk to her on Facebook sometimes, and every time she gets a message from you her heart flutters. Sounds pathetic, huh? Yeah, well, that’s because it is. It’s really too late for her to be telling you of how much she likes you. Yeah, she still likes you. Three years and still trying to move on. This is from the girl who can’t hear the song “Thunder” by Boys like Girls without thinking about you (and almost crying). She thinks that song was written about her feelings for you, “Your eyes were the brightest of all the colors, and I don’t wanna ever have another. You’ll always be my thunder.” That line always gets to her, and makes her think of your gorgeous blue eyes. She doesn’t tell you she likes you because, it’s far too late. She missed her chance years ago. She regrets that decision quite often.
Well there it is for you; three years’ worth of me liking you. I know I’m crazy, I never said I wasn’t. I don’t expect you to feel the same way. I don’t even expect you to respond. In fact it would probably be better if you didn’t say anything, spare my feelings please. This letter was more just for me to get these words out. I probably won’t even send this to you, so I don’t see why it matters anyway. I just thought you should know that I will always like you. You were the first guy I ever truly liked. I mean, if I were to look through my diary entries from the past few years most of them end with, P.S. I <3 Cheerio. Well I hope this letter amused you, it was nice to get this out. Thanks.
Just thought you should know these things.
~Me
xoxox

Sick...

                Yeah, that’s right, I’m sick.

                :x

                I stayed home from school today. I wasn’t going to go just to sit there miserable. Runny nose and sore throat, not fun. I hate being sick. I guess if there was a bright side to this, it would be that I finished the book I was reading. Dash and Lily’s Book of Dares, if you haven’t read it you really should. It’s a cute book. I just wish the author’s would have made it a little longer by answering a few more of my questions.

                Just wanted to clear some things up for you:

                I will be doing AT LEAST 3 blog post a week. (I think doing one everyday would be impossible for me… so 3 a week!)

                Some post will be a little different from the one’s I’ve been doing. I have a goal to write two letters a week to people I feel I need to say something to (whether I send them or not, that’s may choice.) I would also like to share some of my writing with you.

                Which leads me to another thing. I am writing a novel. I have been writing this novel since November (it was my Nano Novel but I didn’t quite finish it.) I would really like it if you want to check it out, but hey if it’s not your thing then just ignore this.

Here’s the link: http://www.inkpop.com/projects/84163/silver-bullet/

I think it’s kind of good, still needs a lot of work but it’s coming along.

                So I was just reading someone else’s blog (check it out- http://parafantasy.blogspot.com/ ) and they were talking about listening to music while writing. Well they posted this really brilliant song, it was soft and sweet but it was also kind of inspiring. I’m going to listen to it while I write some more of my novel tonight (that’s what I’m going to do after I finish writing this). It’s the perfect music for me to listen to while I write the last scene of my novel (I’m kind of jumping around and writing what I know is going to happen, so no I’m not really that close to finishing). Well, I figured that I would repost it so that maybe it will inspire you as well. So take a listen and I hope you like it!

                I think I better go before I start ranting about something that you probably won’t care about. So thank you for reading!

xoxoxo

~Baylee Jean

Getting back in the habit

Hey,

                I’m not going to lie to you, but this post is probably going to suck today. It’s not that I’m in a terrible mood or anything; I’m just sort of tired, you know the first day back at school and all and of course the teachers load us with homework from the get-go.  So, I’ve been doing homework since I got home at four. (I usually get home at like 3:15 but I had Monday Elective [Creative Writing] after school today) My homework probably would not have taken me so long, but I had to get back in the habit of doing it. What do my teachers think I am, some sort super teen (I don’t think there will ever be such a thing). When I was younger I use to love school, I even liked school during middle school, but now, I don’t even know what to think. I just don’t want to be there, it’s not that I don’ want to learn. No I like that part. It’s just my school in general. Lately I’ve been dreaming of going to some rich up-scale boarding school for the future senators and presidents of the world (not that I want to be either), it just sounds like an adventure to me. Adventure that I’ve had a craving for, for a while now. The only reason I’ve been having this fantasy is probably because of the novel I’ve been writing since November. The main characters go to the type of school I would like to attend. If you want to check the novel out a few chapters are up of nit on my inkpop account, it’s called “Silver Bullet”.

                So I think I’ll find another day to complain to you about my school considering I’m trying to make it through the day without spazzing out.

                Okay one more thing about school, but this is a good thing. My grades are so flipping amazing,  mean they could probably be better but I’m proud of myself.  Here they are:

Grades-

AP World History: B

Geometry: B- (not my best, it’s just because I’m not well organized though.)

Spanish 1: A-

Foundational Art: A

Biology: A- (I am super psyched about this!!)

English: A

Yeah so, I know kind of nerdy to be posting this on my blog but I’m kind of happy about them.  Exams are coming up in two weeks though so we shall see what will happen. Does anyone else know how scary exams are in your freshman year of high school? Well, if you don’t they are extremely scary.

I did not get the skin for my laptop today, bummer. It’s going to be cute when I get it. I’ll take a picture of it for you when I get it so you can see my laptop. Crap! That just reminded me that I did not take my picture for the 365 Day Project, wow, I failed already. Well I’m determined not to fail on this blog, so at least I’ll have something to show for the year.

I’ve been watching The Game Plan on Disney Channel for the past hour (don’t ask why I’m watching Disney Channel) this movie (though I’ve seen it before) is extremely depressing. I have a question, does Dwayne the rock Johnson look sweaty no matter what he’s doing? I swear there’s this scene where he’s just standing there doing nothing, middle of January, and he’s all sweaty. Seriously?

Well, this blog post has jumped around quite a bit. Sorry about that. Well I’d better get going, I have to get some sleep tonight. Not that getting sleep is going to be that difficult considering how tired I am. So, I am going to go.

Good Night.

xoxox

~Baylee Jean

P.S. If you’re reading this, thank you!

This Sunday,

Hi,

                Sunday’s usually aren’t my day, I think you need to know that. But today, I tried to make Sunday fun so that I could start the week optimistic (It didn’t work 100%, but it worked about 86%).  I think it was supposed to be the first mall party of the year. Well I don’t know how much of a party it was but it was still fun. The reason it wasn’t really a party was because it was just Alex, Miranda, and I. It was fun seeing Alex, I hadn’t seen him since his play (in November) and he was wearing a skirt then and had a bunch of other people talking to him. I’ve really missed that boy, so it was really nice seeing him again. We even took him home, and during that car ride we learned that Miranda knows nothing about sarcasm. Alex was talking about how his aunt got hit by lightning three times, Miranda totally bought it. I think she started to realize that he was kinding when he then said that his aunt also got hit by a falling piano, but I’m not even sure she realized it was sarcasm then. But my dad (who was driving) was amused, and I thought it was hilarious.

                Anyway, I promised I would tell you guys about me. So I filled out a character sketch about myself (this is the type of thing I fill out when I’m trying to learn more about characters in a book I’m writing). So here ya go…

          Name: Baylee Miller

          Age: 14

          Birthday: July 7^th

          Hair Color: Blond

          Eye Color: Blue

          Where do I live: Michigan.

          Do you like where you live: Well, if I could live anywhere else I would. There’s nothing wrong with here, I just know that there is more adventure and excitement elsewhere.

          Occupation: High School Student (Freshman)

          Physical Description: Blond hair, Blue eyes, a little over-weight, about 5’ 3”, Caucasian. I have to wear uniforms to school every day (it sucks)  but on no-uniform days I don’t really know how to describe my style. But it’s normal, and nice I s’pose.

          What class do I belong to: Middle Class

          Right or left- handed: Right

          What words or phrases do you use often: The word “spiffy” and  “amazing”! I am also I frequent user of sarcasm.

          How would I describe my childhood: I was not a normal child, I don’t think. I was kind of a goody-toe-shoes. I was shy. Nad I had a VERY active imagination, which I still have.

          When and with whom was your first kiss: Haven’t had one yet, haven’t even had a boyfriend. I’m hoping that will happen this year, but we’ll see.

          Am I optimistic or pessimistic: As the title of a paramour song, I am an optimistic pessimist.

          Greatest Fear: That I will live this life and have nothing to show for it.

          Religion: Christian

          Hobbies: Writing and Photography

         

Ahhh, I have to go!!! Well I guess you’ll just have to check this blog out another day for me to finish.

Tomorrow is back to school. I am going to be so out of it. Hopefully my teachers don’t try to do anything that takes too much brain activity.

xoxox

~Baylee Jean

January 2

January 2
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Today, everyhting seemed to be based on time. Waking up on time, getting ready in time, having fun at the mall and still getting back in time to do my homework, and I know falling asleep on time is going to be an issue. So, that is why for day 2 I took a picture of my clock! Yep, it's a wonderful, beautiful clock. It's actually an alarm clock, but I don't use the alarm. My mom wakes me up in the morning. =) So this is my day where I really had to keep track of time, but I didn't really want to! I'm actually really proud of myself for remembering to do this for the second day! GO me!!

~Baylee Jean

Bring it on 2011! ♥

Well, here we go…

                Here’s to 2011! It’s a new year, and I don’t want to sound cliché but let’s try to make it the best year yet. I’m seriously going to try. I’m done with all of my lack of self-confidence, and self-doubt. This year, that stuff isn’t going to hold me back from doing what I want to, and being a hundred percent me. After the end of this year I want to be the one in the center of the crowd, I want to be the girl that everyone knows as a fun party girl, but they also know her as a nice, understanding, smart girl. I can feel it, this is going to be my year!

                Last night (New Year’s Eve) Miranda, Katelyn, and I want to New Year’s on the Grand at Rosa Park Circle. This was my third year going. It was fun, hilarious, and kind of wild. We got to see Runner Runner, Good Charlotte, and We the Kings! Heck Yes! It was awesome! We the Kings, definitely the best and most fun. Oh and how could I forget, Mad Cap Coffee’s Hot Chocolate! Yummy! How could the night have been any more wonderful?

                Well I didn’t have a New Year’s Kiss (never have), but I wish I did have someone to kiss when the countdown was over, just someone to spend the first minute of 2011 with. But, as part of my New Year’s Resolution I am forcing myself not to dwell on the fact. (Next year Baylee, you’ll have someone next year. That’s what I’m telling myself). I love downtown at night, especially on New Year’s! The people are so hilarious; half of them are drunk (which leads to some random dude bursting through the middle of the crowd and hitting me in the head, kind of; a brunette girl claiming that she’s a ginger; and one of my best friends getting two creepers coming up to her, one of them even giving her a hug) and the other half, I don’t even know about them. I could spend the entire night just watching the people. It’s fun. I love it!

                Well, this all I have time for tonight. I’m seriously going to be so sleep deprived, have to wake up tomorrow so that I can go to the mall with people I haven’t seen in forever. Seriously, I hope they all come. Alex and Andrew said they would come, so I hope they do, I haven’t seen them in forever. I miss my guys!

                So, if you’re reading this, cheers to 2011!

xoxoxxoxox

~Baylee Jean

p.s. More to come tomorrow, or later today I s’pose.. I kind of still have to introduce myself to you guys so, be expecting that!

‘Night!

January 1

January 1
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Well today was New Year's. I'm starting the 365 Day Project, so this is my first one.The picture on the left is me with no make-up (ickk) and the other one is me with make-up. I kinda like this idea because it kinda shows the two different sides of me. Some days I just don't feel like getting ready or doing anything, so I stay home and write and stuff; on those days I look like the picture on the left. Other days, I just wanna have fun, see people, and rock out! (hahaha) on those days I look like the one on the right. So that's why I choose this picture for today, so that I could introduce you to the two different sides of me! =) Thanks!