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Saturday, February 26, 2011

This world is crazy

               This world is crazy. Well, more some things that happen in this world are crazy. There are some things that seem impossible, but people can still pull them off and they almost get by without being caught.
                I’m at Katelyn’s house right now, and we just got done watching Prime Time: What Would You Do, and 20/20. It was honestly the first time I had watched either of the two shows, but I must say, they were both extremely interesting. Prime Time: What Would You Do was pretty thought provoking. On the show we watched the issues were: adopting children of a different race, drinking when you’re with children, and watching people scam people. It really made me think, ‘What would I do?’ And, I don’t know, my mind was kinda blown by 20/20. It was about a guy who was completely insane! Well, let’s just say: He forced his wife to get a face-lift, then he basically drugged her, he probably killed his wife, after killing his wife he hired a ‘nanny’ who didn’t do anything, he sent his adopted daughter back to her country, he had a fake life getting money from the government, he had a felony of forging checks, and he forged paper and I.D.’s. I don’t know, I just can’t believe a person could do all those things without them getting caught. It seriously makes me wonder, if a person can do all that, what else have people done? Don’t you find it a little scary? I find it a lot scary. =/
                I haven’t written anything this week. I really don’t know why, I just haven’t really had anything enlightening or important to say. So, sorry, but you didn’t miss much. Today has been a pretty good day though =) so I feel obligated to talk about it, so in future years to come I can look back at this and remember, ‘When I was in high school, I actually did have a few good days!’
                First let me start off by saying, the gentleman remains a complete gentleman. I swear he’s almost perfect. He gets good grades, he does all the things a gentleman does, and he’s cute. So, what’s wrong with him? There has to be something wrong, right? He’s only human after all. Oh, I think I might know what’s wrong with him, he doesn’t like me. Well, I suppose that’s not something wrong with him, but something wrong with me. Sigh. He obviously must not hate me, because he is so darn sweet. Unfortunately, every time I open my mouth to say something to him, I think it comes out almost mean and snobby. And, I don’t think I’m a snob, and I guess I can be mean at times, but certainly not to him. I think I’m just trying too hard to be cool and make a good impression. It obviously isn’t working. Shall I tell you his tales of gentlemanness? Well, even if you said no, I shall tell you anyway. You may not think this is a big deal, but most people wouldn’t do this in today’s society and so it sets him apart from the rest. The other day in the class that I have with him, the row we are sitting in was one paper short and the teachers had no more copies left. I was in the last seat of the row, so obviously I would be the one not getting the paper. The guy in front of me, just got right to work on his paper (I don’t care, it’s just an example of how the average guy acts, compared to this person). Well, the gentleman passed his paper back to me so that I could get started and he waited for a paper instead of making me do it. He is the middle person in the row, so he already had a paper, in case you didn’t catch that. I know it’s nothing huge and it’s just a guy being a gentleman, but not many guys are gentleman so, it was sweet. I think he is wonderful! I just wish I had more opportunities to talk to him, and without sounded bad. By the way, I am officially sure that he knows my name. Little triumph but a triumph all the same. You see, today in English class (oh my I’ll just say it, I have English with him!) we were debating about love in class. The teacher would read a question and we’d either go to the corner for strongly agree, the one for agree, the one for disagree, and the one for strongly disagree. (By the way, we are starting Romeo and Juliet. That’s how this is relevant to class.) Well, for one of the questions I was standing all by my lonesome in ‘disagree’. He was standing in the middle like a lame butt, which we weren’t aloud to do, but when he explained his reasoning he said, I agree with and see what Baylee is saying and then he repeated what I said. I know I’m lame, and the littlest things make me happy, but it honestly probably made my day.
                Also, I think there may be another guy that I may be semi-attracted to. I’m not really sure, it’s probably just a heart flutter thing and my the end of next week I’ll be over it. Still, I don’t think it would be bad if I did.
                And I met a guy in the hallway today. I have heard of the guy before considering he is really weird, but I had never met him. But I was walking in the hallway and so was he. We got stuck behind some people and by the time we got past them we were walking next to each other. Well, we had never met so he was all ‘Hi, who are you?!’ , and I said ‘ Hi, I’m Baylee?’ , and he said ‘I’m Brian’ and then ‘Nice to meet you!’ and I said ‘Nice to meet you too!’ I was excited to finally meet the guy. Plus at least I had someone to basically walk me to my class for the moment.
                Well, I’m tired and I should probably be talking to Katelyn considering I am at her house. This is actually the first time we are hanging out without Miranda. I’ve had a pretty good night! Tomorrow should be fun too, ice skating. Here’s to being happy about today and here’s to tomorrow!
                xoxox
                ~Baylee jean

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Runaway...

                Have you ever wanted to run away?
                Have you ever wanted to run and never look back? Just leave the world behind you, and don’t let yourself regret anything. Go where ever you want, see whatever you want. Leave the life you’ve always known. Leave the haters, the people ready to judge you, any responsibility you had, any fears or regrets. If you could just leave it all. Leave the barriers and the restriction the government and anyone else who has authority traps us with. Leave the expectations, the everyday tortures that don’t apply to us.
                I assume you know my opinion on the matter, but just to make it clear: it sounds like a dream. Escaping.  Trust me, I’ve thought about it. I’d never actually run away but I’ve dreamed of leaving, doing something more than what I’m doing now.  The problem: No one understands. No one agrees. No one cares.|
                Running isn’t always cowardice. Sometimes, it’s what’s best. We aren’t running away out of fear, we’re running because we are the dreamers. We see the world differently, in a way no one else will ever understand. We know that there is something more out there, something else we should be doing. Instead of being imprisoned here, we’d rather be imprisoned elsewhere. Or, better yet, not be imprisoned anywhere at all; always moving.
                There really is no point in me being here. I can see that, so why can’t anyone else? I am wasting my life here, rotting away like a banana on a sunny day. I don’t mean to sound dramatic, I’m really not that big of a drama-queen. I’m just saying: Everyone learns in different ways, everyone sees things differently.
                I don’t know where I’m going with this.
                I guess I wish I could just disappear, start over, fall into the earth.
                Maybe someday.
                For now I’ll suffer through it (sounds dramatic like I’m joking but I’m being 100% serious)
                xoxox
                ~Baylee Jean

I'm Always Grumpy...

It’s times like these that life truly confuses me.
At this very moment I am laying on my floor typing this as my cousin lays in my bed snoring louder than I usually blare my music. I bet people around the world can hear her. Last night I had to sleep with headphones in just to block out the sound and it barely worked; I’ll probably have to do the same thing again tonight.
My cousins and grandmother came and spent the weekend. I had yesterday off, but it wasn’t much of a vacation. Everyone else has Monday off, so I’ll be the only one who doesn’t technically get to enjoy their vacation. I guess I don’t deserve it though because I missed school all last week, because I was sick. Sigh, karma I guess.
We went to Craig’s Cruisers. With every minute I spent there I just got more and more ticked-off.  People are so stupid. Hmm, I think that is the thing I have learned this year. Ha, how many times have I said this so far, ‘I hate people. People are stupid. Civilization is stupid.’
Well, I am tired. Good night. Maybe tomorrow I’ll be in a better mood.
Truth be told, tomorrow I’ll probably be in a worse mood. Ha, good luck with that.
xoxox,
~Baylee Jean